Take the healing where it comes

In small packages or in large packages;
sitting in the feeling
sitting and waiting,
i don't want to feel abandoned again
to jargon
abandoned again to words
that sound like the words that should be the right words
correct in their pronunciation
that sound like the words I
should cling to but
have you ever tried clinging to a word?
they are weightless,
they don't even weigh the breath it takes
to say them out loud.
I don't want to be abandoned to your rhetoric,
platitudes,
pointed fingers, pointing at me and wagging
in scolding,
abandoned just after
you layer on the shame blame guilt and list
of how I did it wrong
how to do it right
Who writes these things, any way,
and was He ever
human?

3/22/09
-M.L.B.